I was going to provide some kind of real, actual update on my life as of ending my freshman year of college, but then I realized there is honestly absolutely nothing to say.
My life is pretty boring, but a lot of fun.
I finally got a job, at Macy's in Meriden, as an on-call associate. Which basically means I have a job and hours for a week, but I will not always have to actually go to it, which I'm pretty okay with.
I'm making money, again, finally, and am prepared to spend most of it and only save a little of it.
I was thinking of getting an internship next summer and living in the city, but ugh, it's so fucking hot there, it's horrifying.
Looks like I'll be spending the next three weekends or so in the city, however, so I guess I'll have to get used to it.

No, really, I have nothing to say, hmm. I thought I would have something, but really. I got nothing.
This last real summer of not having any actual responsibility is going pretty well.
I want to play bingo again.
I want to go to Texas in sweltering heat even though I don't think Texas is a very good place to vacation.
I want all my friends here to live in New York with me too.
Oh, and there to be an available pool close to my apartment.

Okaaay so yeah, freshman year is almost over and I don't know how that happened. It's been a really good year, a lot of ups and downs, but I guess that comes with the territory, or something.
I'm excited for next year, because I will be living with Keely and taking a lot more classes I want to take and won't feel bad about taking the elevator to my floor.
But I will miss my roommates now and just the set-up of my room and the fact that all my friends can be found in just three floors. Something tells me that freshman year is different from all other years of college, but I really hope that's not true.
I still don't want to grow up. I want to be as juvenile as possible for as long as possible. But not high school juvenile, college juvenile which is really the best kind. I'm sure when I need to actually do something in life, I'll be ready to, but I still don't feel ready. Thus, I am doing absolutely nothing of value this summer, excepting having fun and traveling and reading and making some money, hopefully at Barnes and Noble but probably not.
I hope things don't change next semester, I really don't.
In six months I will be twenty years old. Oh noooo.
I'm not worried about finals, at all. I'm sad I'm about to pack up. I'm going to miss my apartment, because the one I'll have next year will be different. :(
I'll be home May 10th and then I just don't want to think about anything for like four months, I guess.

ADVENTURES TO HAVE THIS SUMMER:
-Six Flags New Jersey with my college crew!
-Newport, RI with my giiiirls
-Boston numerous times!
-Rilo Kiley!
-Free early morning Coldplay concert in the city
-Visiting Long Island and Emily and Keely
-Watch Hill, RI and other lovely beach desinations
-LAKE COMPOUNE WITH TOASTY
-reading reading reading
-Maybe some writing too
-Texas to see Joe!!! I hope!

Snow in the city is ONLY nice when it is actually falling, but once it stops, it gets dirty and disgusting very very quickly. The fact have to walk everywhere and I still had class today makes me want it to be spring very very badly.
I'm still poor until my paycheck in a week.
Spring break is less than three weeks away, but I'm pretty sure I may commit suicide by then.
Probably not though.
My life is still so full of work, so an update is pointless, but surveys to pass the time until Keely is ready are never pointless!

1. last cigarette?
A couple weekends ago because I am that kind of drinker, sometimes.

2. last beverage:
Orange juice a few hours ago.

3. last phone call?
Hmmm, my mom yesterday, maybe?

4. last text message
Keely.

5. last CD played:
Under the Blacklight

6: last BUBBLE bath:
Shit, never, I don't think. Or at least not since I was a kid.

7: last time you cried :
Hmm, a while ago.

8. last meal:
Special K cereal for breakfast.

SEVEN have you’s:
1. have you ever dated someone twice?:
Nope.

3. have you ever kissed someone & regreted it?:
Eh, kinda, but not really.

4. have you ever fallen in love?
Sure.

5. have you ever lost someone?:
Yeah.

6.have you ever slept until 2pm?:
That used to be my life.

7. have you ever been drunk and thrown up?
Oh New Years '08, how I love your memories.


SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. Tried to start a million papers.
2. Watched the Lunar Eclipse
3. Went to the gym, like thrice
4. Was given a celebrity couple name
5. Learned team delegation
6. Did not see the John Oliver Comedy Central taping

list FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to –
1: Kristina
2: Alex
3: Anna
4: Keely
5: Andrew


list THREE favorite colors —
1: Blue
2: Green
3: Red

list FOUR things you want to do before you die -
1: Publish a book.
2: Travel.
3: Travel.
4: Change the world.



This month have you:

Laughed until you cried:
Possibly.

Went behind your parents back?
I live behind my parent's back?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT:

1. Your last sandwhich?
The bread was kinda weird.

2. Gay Marriage?
Should exist, everywhere.

3. Lowering the drinking age?
It probably should happen, but it's not like it's that big of a deal anyway.

4. Straight, Gay, or Bi.?
Straight.

5. Who are the best huggers that you know?
Toasty.

6. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No.

7. Is there something you want to tell someone?
Not really.

8. What brand of shirt are you wearing?
I don't think it's actually a brand?


9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
I would kiss anyone, let's not lie.

10. What is your current annoyance?
FIFTEEN PAGE PAPER ON MONDAY.

11. How many kids do you want to have?
Like two.

12. Do you want to change your name?
No, I don't care enough.

13. Last time you saw your father?
Almost two years ago.

14. What did you do for your last birthday?
Drunken toga party, of course.

15.What time did you wake up today?
8:30

16. What were you doing at midnight last night:
Being distracted from my paper by Keely and my roommates

17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do:
SPRING BREAK ROAD TRIP.

18. What is your favorite thing in your room
My bed because it is so fucking comfortable.

20. Where is your best friend right now?
Kristina is probably drunk already. Alex is probably flipping burgers. Anna is probably also drunk already with her softball team. Keely is showering, and of course, I know that.

21. What will you do after this Survey?
Dinner eveeentually, but I still got time to waste.

The History Of: Amanda
1. Raised in: Hard Hittin', CT
2. Planned baby: I think I was.
3. Birth date: 10/30/1988
4. Any siblings: One brother.
5. Younger or older: Younger,
6. Hair color: It's kinda just light brown now, since the red is finally mostly gone, but now I kinda want it back.
7. Hair length: Long-ish.
8. first school: St. Joseph's.
9. Eye color: Green.
10. Shoe size: 9.5
11. Mood: Stressed/hungry.
12. Smell: Vanilla? Which is kinda just myself?
13. Height : 5'10.
14. Lefty/righty: Righty.

LOVE LIFE:
1. Do you remember your first real relationship? Yeah, of course.
2. Do you believe in love? Yeah.
3. Shortest relationship? Likeeee, a month and a half or something?
4. Have you ever been heartbroken? Yeah, because I am a girl.
5. Are you liking someone now? Ummm. Sort of. But I'm not really sure about that whole thing yet.
6. Have you ever fallen for a friend? Story of my life? For real.
7. Are you afraid of commitment? No, just skeptical.
8. Do you believe in love at first sight? Sorry, I really really don't.
9. Longest relationship? 14 months or some shit?

THIS OR THAT:
1. Love or money? Love.
2. Coffee or alcohol? Alcohol.
3. One night stands or relationships? Relationship
4. Television or internet? Internet
5. Pepsi or coke? Pepsi.
6. Fun night out or romantic night in? There is enough weekend for both.
7. Phone or in Person? Person.
8. Aim or Myspace IM? AIM.

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Have you ever been caught sneaking out? Nope.
2. Have you ever skinny dipped? Nah.
3. Have you ever done something you regret? Um. Not really.
4. Have you ever been on a house boat? Don't think so.
5. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker? They always were too daunting for me.
6. Have you ever colored your hair? Yeeeah, man.
7. Have you ever been streaking? Only within the confines of 3H.

ARE YOU:
1. Are you missing someone right now? Everrrrryone.
2. Are you talking to anyone right now? My roommates, intermittently.
3. Are you German? No
4. Are you Italian? no
5. Are you French? No.
6. Are you Russian? No
7. Are you Norwegian? No
8. Are you Indian? No
9. Are you Irish? I WISH.
10. Are your parents still married? ...I guess not?

DO YOU:
1. Do you get depressed about things easily? Sometimes.
2. Do you live life to the fullest? Sometimes.
3. Are you comfortable with the way you look? Yeah.
4. How do you dress? Comfortable, but pretty.
5. Are you scared of growing old alone? I really am.
6. What do you want to be when you grow up? Writer.
8. Are you a vegetarian? Fuck no.
9. Current song you are listening to? Becoming Jane theme in the background!

According to my tax records, I made (with my social security money) a total of nearly $11,000 dollars this past year. I currently have $3.03 dollars in my checking account and maybe like $160 in my savings. That is all the money to my name, despite the fact that I was basically rolling in it last year. I mean, sure, I did buy college stuff and five months of an expensive New York lifestyle. BUT STILL. I didn't save any of it, not really. I am officially a broke college student and honestly, I didn't think I would ever REALLY become one. And this does not bode well for the next three months.
Other updates?
I'm not going to Brazil in May because I didn't get into the program, so that will save me some money. But, now I'm planning a trip in August to visit Joe in Texas, and thus, I will probably waste a whole paycheck buying that plane ticket, because I don't know what saving means.
I have had a headache for probably a straight week, until I came home, smashed my back into my desk, and now have a backache.
I'm awesome, really.
I don't think I'm gonna major in English anymore, but I still probably will.
I fucking love visiting home, but I still hate living here. But at least I now know that difference.
This week, I have to: fill out my Urban Plunge application, write a ten minute play, write a fifteen page paper, and draft a Philosophy paper that is basically asking me to disregard the way I have written anything, ever, all on abouuut the fifty or so bucks I can bribe out of my mom. That is not enough money to drown your overworked sorrows in.
For real though. I think my spine is bruised. Not cool.

Oh, and because I don't actually do work when I'm home:


1. Do you like Chinese food? Of course I do.

2. How big is your bed? Extra long twin-sized.

3. Is your room clean? Yeah, for the most part. My desk is usually messy.

4. Laptop or Desktop computer? Laptop.

5. Favorite comedian? Demetri Martin.

6. Do you smoke?  No.

7. Does anyone like you?  Everyone likes me, obviously.

8. Whats the sexiest thing about Condoleeza Rice? Her foreign policy. Yum.

10. Sleep with or without clothes on? With, but always boxers and a tank top, no matter the temperature.

11. Who sleeps with you every night? Definitely not Keely. Not at all.

12. Do long distance relationships work? No, maybe, probably not in the long run, unless you are married or absolutely commited.

13. How many times have you been pulled over by the police? Once. Office Samuel L. Jones, all the way.

14. Pancakes or French Toast? Oreo pancakes.

15. Do you like coffee? Flavored coffee.

16. How do you like your eggs? Scrambled, on occasion, but mostly non-existent.

17. Do you believe in astrology? I believe in coincidences.

18. Last person you talked to on the phone? Kristina.

19. Last person on your missed call list? Rachel

20. What was the last text message you received? 'Thank bejesus' from Scott.

21. McDonalds or Burger King? Burger King, most def.

22. Number of pillows? Two, and maybe one body pillow for decoration.

23. Last thing you ate? Reeses Pieces.

24. Last thing you bought? A ticket to Definitely Maybe.

25. What are you hearing right now? The sweet rhymes of the Geto Boys.

26. Pick a lyric?
Now all I gotta say to you wannabe, gonna be, pussy eating, cock sucking pranksters, when the shit jumps off, what the fuck you gonna do, damn it feels good to be a gangsta.

27. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? I don't like jelly. It makes the sandwich too cold, and I feel like jelly should be refrigerated.

28. Can you play pool? I can pretend.

29. Do you know how to swim? Yes, and you definitely can't fake that.

30. Favorite ice cream? Black raspberry.

31. Do you like maps? I FUCKING LOVE MAPS.

32. Tell me a random fact: I spent $32, 807 on my college education this year.

33. Ever had a hard on at work? I've never had a hard-on. :(

34. Ever attend a theme party? Yes?

35. Ever do a keg stand? Nope.

36. Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking? Only people's couches or floors. I don't think I can sleep in crazy places, drunk or not.

37. What is your favorite season? Spring.

38. What is the first music video you ever saw? The first one I can remember is Thriller, and it scared the shit out of me.

39. Pick a movie quote:
"I hate Uncle Jamie!"

40. Favorite quote: Have fun exploring the infinite abyss.

41. What is your favorite hangout? New York- 3H, DJ's. CT- the diner.

42. Best friend's name? Krexnaly.

43. How long have you known them? Kristina, since first grade, Alex and Anna ninth, and Keely for like five months.

44. Last time you laughed at something stupid? Like two hours ago and random outbursts during the commercials before the movies.

45. What time did you wake up this morning? 11:30?

46. Wake up next to anyone? No.

47. Best thing about winter? Scarves.

48. Name a couple of favorite colors: Blue, green, red.

49. How old are you? 19.

50. What month is your birthday in? October.

51. Do you think pirates are cool or overrated? So overrated they're cool.

52. Favorite Dave Matthews Band song (if you have one?)  Crash Into Me.

53. What are you doing this weekend? Going to see a play at my school and then probably getting Vindangerous.

54. Who will take this survey? No one, they're probably too busy stealing the next survey JP puts up.

55. Who last i/med you? Tom last night.

56. What is the weather like? Still pretty damn cold.

57. Are you glad this is over? No, now I have no excuse not to work on my paper.

Despite the fact that I rung in the New Year in a less than dignified way, haha, I still had a kick-ass time in the city and I hope that it will be a touchstone for 2008. Really amazing friends, fun, and dancing on tables. Maybe less throwing up, however, would be nice.

2007 was actually a pretty kick-ass year, I think, and I don't really have any hopes or dreams going into 2008, except to enjoy life and go to Brazil.

As per usual:

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? 
Went to Disney World, hookah, sake bombing, running away from sake bombing bills, a multitude of other things, I am sure.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? 
I always want to get in shape, and that never really works out. But since I have a gym one floor below me, I may try to actually attempt that for real this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Hmm, no one really comes to mind, I don't think.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Our dog that I kinda hated,

5. What countries did you visit?
None, still.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Ambition.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
August 30th, the day I moved, I guess, and probably Graduation as well.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Actually making friends in college and still earning a sweet GPA.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Being able to handle my emotions like an adult, probably.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really. I thought I had MRSA, but I think I'm good now.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My college education.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
I'm gonna go with just all my friends' in general.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
 We won't go there.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, alcohol, more food, college stuff.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Moving to New York, obviously, and also ironically enough coming back to CT for Christmas break to see everyone.

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Soulja Boy.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder?
Sadder, let's not lie.
ii. thinner or fatter?
Fatter, definitely.
iii. richer or poorer? 
Poorer. Hahah. That is so sad.
  
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
  Reading.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? 
Worrying that I was going to die alone, hah.                                           

20. How did you spend Christmas?
With my family, playing Frogger and Crash Bandicoot and then crying because sometimes life just gets ya down.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Like 75 times.

23. How many one-night stands?
Like two, but that was just kissing so I don't think it counts.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
The Office.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't last year?
Yes.

26. What was the best book you read?                                                                 
The Fountainhead, even though I'm pretty sure I started that in '06.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Voxtrot.

28. What did you want and get?
Friends. An exciting New York City life.

29. What did you want and not get? 
Ugh.                                                                   

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Knocked Up, most def.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was nineteen, and I went on a wonderful birthday scavenger hunt orchastrated by Keely and then had my own birthday toga party.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Actually, the year was pretty nice as it was.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Skinny jeans.
 
34. What kept you sane?
My friends, always.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Um. None in particular I don't think.
 
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
I just liked shouting 'Barack N Roll' at random intervals.

37. Who did you miss?
 Shit, everybody.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I met about fifty best new people, but Keely definitely tops that list.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
You cannot predict people.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

You know how you hear an amazing song and you just feel the need to share it with every single person you know?
This is what this is.

Living in New York City lets you meet some amazing fucking musicians.
But listen to the song 'Virgin Smiles' and tell me that's not one of the most beautiful songs you've ever heard.

http://myspace.com/thomasmoran

On another note, I am occasionally a bad person, yes, but I feel that happiness is hard to come by and sometimes you have to roll with it.
Word.
Never a dull moment, I must admit.
We'll see what happens, again, always.

Hmmm, I'm just finishing up my last paper of the semester, another delicious ten pager and unfortunately I thought it would take a lot longer to write than it did, so I hopped myself up on energy drinks and Dr.Pepper and I doubt I'll be able to sleep even if I tried.

Thus, why not do a silly survey that I have not done in a billion years?
Oh, go for it, Amanda.

1) Where'd you get the shirt you're wearing?
Um, Kohls, I think.

2) Who do you currently like?
Ayn Rand.

3) Do they like you?
Yes.

4) Sunrise or Sunset?
Sunrise.

5) What time did you go to bed last night?
Like one.

6) Time you woke up?
8:30

7) What movie is in your DVD player?
Probably season four of Sex and the City.

8) When's your birthday?
October 30th.

9) Last thing that made you mad?
The existence of research papers.

10) Are you cocky?
No.

11) Can you speak french?
No.

12) Have you ever been to Mexico?
No.

13) Do you make your bed daily?
Usually.

14) Single or taken?
Single.

15) Do you own slippers?
Not anymore.

16) Is there a TV in your bedroom?
At home, yes. Not at school.

17) How many piercings do you have?
Two. I kinda forgot they existed though.
 
18) What do you think of Tom Cruise?
Gay Scientologist.

19) Your best friend(s)?
I have a million, its horrible. Kristina, Anna, Alex, Keely. I am best friends whore.

20) Pets?
Really old yellow lab named Monty/

21) Last two numbers in your phone number?
47

22) Who was the last person you called?
Uhhhhh. Kristina, maybe.

23) Where are your parents from?
Connecticut

24) Are you Irish?
Yes! But no.

25) Can you roll your tongue?
Yes.

26) Who was the last person that called you?
Joseph!

27) Best fast food french fries?
Arby's!

28) Are you in love?
With everyone.

29) How was your day so far?
Long.

30) Have you ever eaten at T.G.I Friday's?
Probbaly, but I don't actually remember.

31) Can you skateboard?
No.

32) How about play an instrument?
Piano, kinda.

33) Do you have any stuffed animals?
Thousands.

34) If you had one wish what would it be?
Satisfaction.

35) Song you're listening to right now?
Some new Bright Eyes song.

I'm in the middle of writing the first paper I've writren longer than two pages since June.
And I only have like five more pages to write, so really, I'm fine. I think I've been having way too easy of a semester, and really only two classes have actually be intellectually stimulating. I feel like I may have wasted money then, I guess, but really I wouldn't trade these past three months in for anything.
I don't think, at least.
Next semester should be harder. I don't know if I actually hope that or not.

One of my suitmates is verbally bitch-slapping her mom and it is awesome.

I kinda hate my school sometimes, becuase it is so fucking small and it's like the high school you always hear about having, but didn't, because we went to New Britain High.
Everyone knows everyone's shit.
And some people haven't grown up yet so whatevvv.
I love a lot of people here, but mostly I can't wait for home where I can be myself and people who hate me will continue to think I'm a bitch and people who love me will accept me for being a bitch.
I miss not caring what people think of me. Sometimes it just feels like the beginning of high school again, and I don't have the energy for that.

I feel like these two weeks are not going to go by, at all, but I really can't wait for Christmas. It's been a good semester, for real.
When Kristina starts criticizing my romantic endeavors, you know something's gotta be wrong.
But that's really a whole other story.
It takes time, obviously, always. But when there's no real end, you can't really have a new beginning, now can you.
It's my own fault.
I'll get over it.
I kinda already have.
I feel though, that whatever happens these next four years, I'll be okay with it somehow.

Lately, I've been feeling at peace with myself even though that sounds fucking lame.
I'm just happy. And I love life.
And I've learned to stop guessing and judging and just do what makes me happy.

I need to write five more pages on Central Park and hopefully go to bed by one.
I get so much freaking sleep here, it's wonderful.
Every female singer reminds me of Regina Spektor. But Kate Nash is lovely.

So I am back from Florida. And I'm not going to bore you all with details on the trip, becase honestly, it wasn't that interesting. I had an all right time doing tourist-y typical stuff and it was all good.
I'm still sad that I missed out on a whole week with people and that  there is so so little time left. I wish I could've gone to the aquarium and Kate's party and everything, but I think it helped me because I was able to deal with being away and I'm hoping that will translate well in a week and a half.

My roommate is named Sophia and she is from Austria. I think one of my other suitmates is British. Score one for European roommates.
I'm going to be sharing my apartment with six other girls, so it's basically going to be like the Real World, minus the testosterone. I honestly do not know how that is going to work out, but I'm going to go in it with high hopes.
I still need to buy dorm shit.

I think I'm getting really excited about it though. Saying goodbye to everyone was tough and it's sure weird to think that Anna, Alex, Tom, and Lex are so far away, but for the most part, it's fine. Different, but fine.

I don't think I'm ready to talk about Thursday yet.
We'll see how that works out.

It doesn't feel like good-bye.
It just doesn't.

I don't know. Tonight, I acted like it was the last time I'd see a lot of people, but honestly. I don't think I really felt like that. I got a little teary eyed when Jen and Toasty left, but that was it.

I just can't grasp it, and thus.
It doesn't feel like good-bye.

Tonight was a lot of fun, and I hope everyone felt the same way, despite the choice between hot as balls heat or being eaten by bugs.

And the fountain?
Completely fucking awesome.